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My journey continues to deepen, expand, and to grow. I am grateful, that for 34 days, I have endeavored to extend Universal Energy through my heart and hands every day so far. I have been busy with my day job lately. And busy chanting the Lakshmi Mantra with wonderful results in prosperity and abundance.

Everything is already gone

So many times during the day I get a strong sense that everything is already gone. My body has already disintegrated. This house I live in, and raise these beautiful children in, and love this beautiful woman in, and get frustrated in, and laugh and cry in, and grow old in - has ALREADY fallen to the ground. Its the future. All of this is a memory of my soul. Just a memory. And the soul that I am - the Transcendent Self - is looking back upon these memories like looking into gentle waves ripping across a pond on a sunny day.

Ultimately, I believe that, and quantum physics is beginning to actually prove, nothing is actually really REAL. It's all a fantasy world, a holo-deck, a dream of our souls. The only thing that is real is the Love we choose to give unconditionally, the Love that we choose to allow ourselves to receive without restriction, and the Love that we ultimately realize, is who we are. This Love, this Energy, this Joy, this Quantum Soup - I am grateful to *send* to *communicate* to all contained in this dream pages of this dream book in this dream world.

Cleansing diet

For the next several weeks, I am eating 6 small, powerful meals a day - nothing on top and nothing in between. I am already feeling some clarity from it. I have always gotten a lot of growth, internal mostly, from the act of a cleansing diet. I shook Sky's hand this morning and told him I would eat these bars only for the next week. By shaking his hand, I really made the commitment - because he will really DIG IT IN if I fall off the cleansing diet wagon! I don't want to hear him teasing me, so I am sticking with it. I am loving the deeper feelings of energy and light and the deeper consciousness I feel already.

How is my consciousness growing?

Or, should I say, how am I disappearing? As I disappear in Love, I awaken in truth. My goal is to consciously choose to have my body disappear into Love - sounds nuts - probably too crazy for many. I am completely sane, honest I am! My point is this: In the deeper levels of reality, the body and all objects in the world are merely illusions that are constantly arising and disappearing from the depths of our consciousness. So my goal is to heighten my body's vibration to the point that it begins to reveal to me the flower of its non-existence.

I love Christine, Sorin, Liam, Sky, Prasad, Amelie and my boxer puppy Hanuman, Emily, Lakshmi our Chi, and Zeke and Gaia, our cats - with all my heart and all my soul.

I want to serve each member of this family - beginning with my wholehearted commitment to loving Christine more deeply, more powerfully, more spiritually. Our relationship is a flower that has weathered several storms and has grown more beautiful over these last 10 years. I remember, even before we met physically, after we hung up the phone from talking to each other, saying to myself "I am going to love her for the rest of my life."

And I am. I love you, Christine. In love, I am you. You are me. May we forever commune in the reality of our love - blossoming in the sight of the Great Mother of the Universe!!! I never knew, before we met, that I would ever have a chance to love someone over a long period of time. Now I do. And part of this long-term process is loving myself, completely and unconditionally - because as I do - I am loving you.

May all the Love I channel into this Exchange pour into our marriage and make our love grow stronger and more powerful every single day for the next 12 years!!