I will rise

I came on this earth
born to turmoil pain anger suffering
rage
confusion
walking vulnerable through a battlefield
abused
crying
wishing I would die
that I was never
ever
born.

I came on this earth
to rise, to rise,
and rise
like a phoenix through the ashes
and remember my wings of
transcendent Love.

I came on this earth
on a great inner journey to
find my Teacher
and my home in Love.

I am on this earth to take up
my wings of freedom and fly
through the endless sky of
Omniscient Love
at One with the Divine Lover
who sent me.

I came on this earth to unleash
this flood of Love through me
to vanish the broken thoughts of
hate, the shattered dreams of sorrow,
and to awaken
to rise
and rise
and
rise again.

I came on this earth to remember
who I am
the Soul of Pure Love
at One with All Love
Everywhere.

I came on this earth to shatter
the false memory of being
a frail weak human being
and to take my place alongside
the Great Ones
to walk with Them,
hands in hand, smiling
together
the light of the One.

Am I naive? Am I insane?

Yes, you are, the pain of this world says.
You are nuts, for who are you
to think you are so good
so high and mighty?
Who are you to think you are better
than me?
You had better come back here
and let me hold you in my misery
wrap you in my ugly shame
and try and smother your spirit
kill your dreams forever.

And I say,
No.
NO!
NO YOU WILL NOT!

And whats more,
you will surrender!
You will surrender without terms.
Unconditional surrender!

I come on this battlefield with reinforcements
this time!

I come onto this battlefield with the Great Ones
of past and present and future
this time!

I came holding the hand of my Teacher
and his Teacher
and his!

Just as the mountain surrenders
eventually
to the drop of water

so you will surrender to the Omniscient Love
within me.

You will.

I may fall on this battlefield, yes, I may.
If I fall, broken and shattered,
arrows of pain sticking out of my guts,
one thousand times,
then one thousand and ONE times
I shall rise.

I shall rise again and again and
again.

For Love is patient

very

patient.

~~Daniel Peebles

Day 226 challenges challenges challenges

Emotional challenges

I am grateful to be continuing on this sacred journey of merging with and transmitting Universal Energy through my heart and hands for the benefit of all life. In the past two weeks, I have had some painful experiences with my family of origin, mainly my mom. I think I have processed it mostly, and I am not sure I am even ready to write about it, but I will see. I think for now, I am just going to "table it" in my mind, not go to deep into it now, and move on. Just to say that the most hateful things anyone has ever said to me in my 43 years of life came from my mom. Not just rude, but purely hateful. So I will go on processing everything, and trying to lift my consciousness, my heart, my soul, to a clear level of existence. The best parts about this whole thing: 1) It has inspired me to go deeper and further into my spiritual evolution, study, practice, and meditation, and 2) I didn't fight back. I didn't send hate back. And I won't. I may not ever speak to her again, but I won't meet her hate with more hate.

I keep on keeping on. It has been 7 months now, and I am very happy to be keeping my commitments. Reviewing the whole list from the beginning of the year, the only two things that have stayed are 1) transmitting the Energy/Love every day for 12 minutes at a time, and 2) doing my spiritual breaths. The eating one meal a day and the rest fell away. Those were the two main ones that I wanted to keep going on.