I own nothing

I just had a great session of transmitting Universal Love, and I am feeling myself embark upon a deep, internal study of abundance and money. It seems that everyone has either negative or positive connotations around money. They either hate it, or grope after it like Schmeigel in the Lord of the Rings going after the ring.

I am realizing that I own nothing. Yeah, I make money. I put it in the bank for a little while. Then I give it away to others. I may collect a savings account, and collect this amount of money or that amount of money. But in the end - in the short dash - in the lightning strike that I am on this earth - I take no money with me. No money is put in my casket when I die. It all goes away from me in the end anyway.

SO... I am going to start developing a deep, intuitive, inner renouncement of money. I own nothing. I keep nothing. I am merely an empty vessel. A river bed through which abundance flows for the benefit of my family, community, and the world. I want to develop a detachment, a letting-go, a release around receiving money and around giving money. It comes to me freely. It leaves me freely. I don't push it away. I don't hoard it.

In this way, I think I can allow more abundance to flow to me, and through me.

Churn the butter of Love

Divine Mother
Universe
God
Beloved
The smile behind
the particles and waves of
this Sacred Universe...

I pray, screaming in ecstatic agony
that You feel this Love that I pour
through
these empty hands
this open heart.

In my life, I have collected worries
anxieties
fears
traumas...

I want to much to escape
this lake of uncertainty that my little
boat floats upon
pushed around by the waves of stress
and time.

I want so much to disappear into the light
gushing with pure ecstatic bliss
through this flimsy transparent dream
body.

I want to know that this Universal Energy
this Love
this Divine Bliss
is making a difference in the lives
of all I send this Love to...

Again I say:
most of all,
it is You - behind the faces of all
behind the smiles of all
within the tears of all
beating in the heart of all

it is You...
that I pray will feel this Love.

Inwardly I churn my heart
higher and higher,
more and more intensity,
my hands shaking,
tears streaming,
please, disappear,

please human dream body
disappear

reveal the light you are hiding...

and may You,
the smiling center of mystery

may You feel this Love
and may I feel that You
have received the shattered atoms
and cells of

this Love

Divine.

no more numbers

Okay, I think I am going to stop just numbering the days. Every now and then, I may look at a calendar and see what day I am on, just for fun. Instead, I am just operating under the assumption that I am not going to miss a day of transmitting Universal Love for the period of January 1, 2010 through January 1, 2022. That's my goal and I am sticking with it.'

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Oh sweet Universe
I know your in there
in here

in the palms of these hands
in these cells, these atoms

deeper down

deeper down

all the way - I know You are in here.

I breathe my heart, my soul
open to You

and I witness You unfold in the palms
of my hands.

Galaxies,
Suns,
Moons,
Planets,
Endless Light,

is in here.

You unfold, and I pray,
the prayer that a river prays
as it dances down the landscape of dreams.

I pray that all will feel and will soak up
and will benefit

from the dance of this
water
Divine.

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Spiritual questions

Is it possible for a question to spark, nurture, and help stir the awakening of our souls, our love, our native beingness?

For the past two years, I have written, re-written, and tweaked a set of 108 spiritual, meditative questions designed to help us awaken. And as of the last few days, I am feeling how much they are a part of this Exchange. I have been asking them, deeply reflecting them, and releasing them into my mind and body for the past few days, and I am about to start an official 108 day journey of asking them every single day.

There are 5 audios in all, and the 108 questions take about 9 minutes and 37 seconds to be asked. In meditations 1 and 2, they are repeated rapidly, one after the other, so that if you listen and repeat each question back to yourself, the next question will begin before you have had a chance to repeat it. It overlaps for this reason: the conscious mind gets tired because it wants to be in control, and as it is trying to repeat one question, and the next one begins, it goes back and forth between the two. This soon causes it to loosen its grip and relax, which allows the listener to sink into a deep and delicious, relaxed and wonderful state of mind.

In meditations 3 and 4, they are delivered into each hemisphere, each ear, in random order. It sounds like two sets of different questions, but they are the same list of 108 questions, but spoken in random order. This allows both hemispheres, and the intelligence and resources within each, to harmonize and go into a deep and transcendent state of mind and body.

Meditation 5 is semi-subliminal. You can barely hear the questions spoken, but they are mostly inaudible.

Finally, all the questions are saturated with Divine Energy/Love every day - so that as you absorb them, you are also soaking up this Energy into your cells, atoms, mind and heart.

The ultimate goal of these questions is to point the consciousness to that place beyond all thought, all time, all form, all dimension - so that we can live in the effortless grace of our divine beings.

More later...

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All people in pain, please receive this Love flowing through my heart, hands - and through the heart and hands of all beings of light. It is time to end the suffering on this planet, and Love is the only medicine that can heal the wounds of loneliness, pain, and suffering.

I have gone through a lot of purging of anxiety, craziness, and general feelings of internal chaos this weekend. I am feeling much better. Yesterday was hard because I have been not getting enough sleep due to our new puppy that is sleeping in the room with Christine and I.

On my way to drop my two beautiful boys off at camp, this thought came to me:

Nothing UNREAL can ever be protected.
Nothing REAL can ever be harmed.
Love is REAL. Everything else is the grand dance of illusion.

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I just had a great session of sending the Universal Love.

I am settling into a nice habit, a nice groove, a nice rhythm in doing my spiritual practices every day. I am feeling a sense of chaos, a sense of change, a sense of transformation lately. Locally, our kids elementary school almost closed, but ultimately didn't. After going to all those school board meetings, all those school board forum meetings, two public marches/gatherings - I have come to have a deeper love, respect, appreciation for my neighbors and friends. They are all such wonderful people, and I am proud to be a member of this community.

Anyway - all is well in LOVE SEND LAND!

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I surrender my heart
mind
body
soul

to

L
O
V
E